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Monday

I dreamt about a very old paperback book with pages falling out. I was fascinated by it and knew it well. It turns out that Karl Hyde had used the philosophical concepts within the historic book as the sole inspiration for Barbara, Barbara. I was struck by what a copy cat he was and there was a sense he had travelled to the past. I read the book feeling that it was modern because the words were so like the lyrics. Some of my awe of him reduced knowing he didn’t come up with the fascinating ideas himself, but then reappeared seeing his mysterious smile.

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Wednesday

Today’s entry is handwritten so I could write it in bed. Screen time now to be avoided in bed. New rule!

It’s to be found in your paper chase square ruled notebook, where ever that now is.

I’m plowing through the Jason Vale book. I’m so off alcohol. I have no inclination to drink. 🙂 creating separation between phone and bed is giving me a sense of peace. My dreams like it. 🙂

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Sunday

After breakfast I went back to bed and drifted in and out of dreams until 5pm. Went out for a walk to Tesco. Got some new face masks. I’ve been using the same one since the beginning of lockdown and it’s looking a little tatty. I’ll be looking sharp next time I’m out shopping! Well at least in the face department. Got some non decaf coffee because I’ve been missing having it at home.

Then I reorganised my food cupboard. Had a bubble bath. Cleaned the sink. Chatted to Emily and Jamie and then I tweeted.

Back to the Jason Vale book now.

I’m feeling positive about starting reboot tomorrow. I will try not having sugary drinks from tomorrow. I feel a bit apprehensive about it, but no more than I did with booze and that is going well now. Plus I’m allowed coconut water and that is delicious and sweet.

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Friday

Hello. The not drinking is going really well. I’m not missing it and I’m feeling healthier. Woo hoo!

Today I did housework and got out for a long walk listening to Talk Talk.

Did a listening party and had a bubble bath. Conditioned my hair for the first time in years probably. Thanks Emily for the conditioner. I’m looking forward to silky locks when it eventually dries!

Lamb ragu was a lovely lunch and I picked up some reduced sushi for din dins.

Hoover is kicking out dust again even though it’s empty. I took some scissors to it and released some hair (mine). The other hoover smells really dusty so the bag probably needs changing. Mum made it look so simple when she showed me on hers. Hmmm.

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Saturday

Started listening to 1984 audiobook a few days ago. It bringing back memories. Made pizza for the first time today. Delicious!

Want to do something about my drinking, which is currently 2-3 drinks a day. But normally 3. And it doesn’t make me feel that drunk. Tolerance increase. Might read the Jason Vale book again for a pep talk.

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Thursday

Today I practised brisk walking. I feel like it’s something I could get used to. I also did the SN workout for the first time. I’m interested in lifting weights too. I think Ben said he had some. Maybe I can buy them off him. Felt good today.

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Wednesday

Today I started the Active 10 app to encourage me to walk briskly. I feel good about that. I feel that I am drinking too often at the moment. It’s hard to stay in good habits for a long time. Second Nature says that the best way is to make the habit a part of your identity. I found that interesting.

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Monday

Today I really enjoyed some shortbread. I want to enjoy 2 biscuits twice a week like Amy does. I was doing fine having zero biscuits so in a way it felt foolish to buy them. But I hope I can have self control and only have them when I really feel like it. If it doesn’t work out I’ll stop buying them for a while.

Too many carbs today but not by a lot.

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Sunday

Today I made a fattoush salad and it turned out really nicely. Mum said ‘It makes me feel very happy to think you’re cooking.’ Then Ben cooked us beef steaks which were also delicious. And I know steak is a suggested SN food too.